Steve Hardison & Julie Blake
On October 30, 2010, Steve Hardison shared what has come to be known as the Deuce Lutui story at the University of Utah’s Rice-Eccles Stadium. Click on the link below to watch a video of Steve’s presentation.
My PIC “Personal Internal Commitment”
My story of how I shifted from being a victim of life to the creator of my life.
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The truth is that I have always lived from my PIC – however, for the first 39 years of my life I attempted to avoid taking responsibility for the life I was creating. In reality, my PIC was TBVOPE – “The Best Victim On Planet Earth.”
I really believed that life was something that happened to me, something to get through. I was pretty much a victim to everything: Money (lack of it), my health, relationships, my body, eating disorders (thinking disorders), my family etc.
I was a reality sufferer. I truly believed that if the world, others and my circumstances in life changed, I would finally be happy. I really believed that something OUTSIDE of myself had the power to determine if I was successful or a failure and if I felt happy or sad or whatever.
I would gladly take full credit when my life was going well. But when things were not going the way I thought that they “should” go, I would promptly drift off into the clouds of my imagined future and get lost falling in love with my big ideas… anything but face reality! (This was my favorite place to hide and avoid responsibility).
The trouble was, that I could not leave a place that I had never been. I had to first be willing to face and own the truth that I was a master at fulfilling my PIC called TBVOPE – “The Best Victim On Planet Earth.”
Until I got that I was personally internally committed to being a victim and that my “PIC” was creating a life of fear, selfishness, impatience, misery, bankruptcy, foreclosure, divorce, stress, business failures, health problems, unhappiness and not funness – I could not create something different.
I first started getting real with myself and facing reality in October of 2006 when I was introduced the The Work of Byron Katie. After which, I spent months filling notebooks doing The Work (http://www.thework.com/) and undoing one stressful/victim thought at a time.
In December of 2006, I traveled to Los Angeles to attend Katie’s New Year’s Cleanse, this is where first I met Steve Hardison and he literally shook me and woke me up… a wake up call to my Soul that was in a deep and dark slumber. As he was shaking me he said “Julie are you listening? You’ve got to go to Katie’s School.”
I attended Katie’s 9-Day School in April of 2007. At The School I spent an entire day and evening in absolute bliss… Heaven on Earth. I observed that I was NOT my thoughts and I clearly saw how I had been creating my own living hell by believing my stressful thoughts. I saw how Heaven on Earth was always just a thought away patiently waiting for me to notice it.
From this experience I realized that life was simple… that life happens FOR ME and not to me. I was no longer a victim to life, a reality sufferer. I became a reality shifter, a creator of my life. I took responsibility for the life I was creating – the ALL of what I was creating. I took conscious ownership of my ability to respond (responsibility).
And my new PIC was born… OHPCTT “One Hundred Percent Committed To Transformation.” I was 100% willing to know myself – ALL of myself – facing and embracing my brightest light and my darkest shadows. I was in pursuit true freedom and my internal truth. One hundred percent committed to unraveling my layers and layers of victimness.
I knew that my freedom, love, happiness, and my Real self were waiting for me… just on the other side of fear. I knew that fear comes from two places. 1) The fear of losing what I had and 2) Fear of not getting what I want. And, Katie said that personalities/ego want something and that Spirit/who I truly AM wants to give, not get. I knew that fear is not love.
I wonder how I’d love if I weren’t afraid?
A love doesn’t turn to hate when I don’t get my own way.
I started asking myself new questions. WHO do I want to show up as in the world? I decided that I wanted to show up as someone who was loving and that uplifts others… especially when I do not get my own way. No matter what others do or don’t do, no matter what happens in the world, all I experience and have control over is who I am showing up as. In every moment I can either choose to BE love or choose to BE fear.
Because WHO I WAS BEING was OHPCTT “One Hundred Percent Committed To Transformation,” Steve Hardison introduced me to Steve Chandler who introduced me to Stephen McGhee. These three extraordinary men saw something in me that I could not see in myself at that time and they pulled my Soul out of the “Lost and Found” and dusted me off and reminded me that I was born to Shine. Because of the grace and generosity of these men, my new PIC was born.
On July 17, 2010 I spent 2 hours with Hardison in Phoenix and it was like I was taken apart cell by cell. I was love and I was nothing and I was free to create anything. From this place of nothingness I asked myself some new questions… questions that I had never asked before…
“What does God/Spirit want me to create?”
“What is my Soul intending for me to create?”
“What do I really, truly, deeply want?”
“Who AM I?”
“Why AM I here?”
From this experience, I realized that pretty much everything I had ever attempted to create in my life was being created from a deep yet subtle fear of not being enough… in an attempt to prove that I have value. To prove that I was worthy to be loved and wanted. To Prove that I was worthy to be alive.
I clearly saw that all my “Big Ideas,” me being the “Mighty Project Girl… The one who makes things happen,” and yes, even my bright shiny light were all a big façade, a racket, a lie, a clever hiding place, a way to look good/important, a very sneaky way to play small, but look like I was playing big.
Masquerading as a man with a reason
My Charade is the event of the season.
~Kansas – My Wayward Son
I realized freedom was an inside job, and that what I really wanted freedom from was all the pressure I was putting on myself in my head. I realized that all I really wanted was my life to be fun, relaxed, loving… and a life of enoughness, where I knew I was a good enough Mom, pretty enough, and I had enough time, money and energy.
Good thing that “pressure” is not real, it does not exist… it is just a thought that my mind made up stories about to scare me. So, I let myself off the hook of trying to prove I was extraordinary and I ditched my imaginary pressure. I decided to be ordinary and average. “Have an average day” as a really wise person may of said.
I started off by declaring what I was NOT committing to. I declared that I was NOT going to write a book. I was NOT going to record a CD. I was NOT going to create a 6 month coaching program. I was NOT going to create any BIG PROJECTS!!!!
I figured that I would listen to Steve Hardison and simply serve the person in front of me. It sounded fun, relaxing and loving. So I declared a new PIC called STPIFOM “Serve The Person In Front Of Me” and it was so. And it was working extremely well! I was enjoying and loving my fun, relaxed life of enoughness!”
Then on Sept. 27, 2010 I heard that Steve Hardison had nearly lost his voice from sharing the Deuce story 61 times and then cheering at football games. On that day, Hardison happened to be the person in front of me. So, I called up Hardison and offered to help him with his voice. When I got off the phone with him, I created a 12 minute voice lesson to help his voice recover and I emailed it to him. It worked and Hardison was able to coach the next day.
Then in a phone conversation with Hardison on 10/9/10 it was as if TBOLITNFL inspired Steve to come and share the story in Salt Lake City, UT. Steve’s wife, Amy was scheduled to speak at BYU on 10/30/10 and our event date was born out of that conversation. I did nothing but serve the person in front of me. And in that moment the Steve Hardison Sharing TBOLITNFL event in Salt Lake City was created and my current PIC was born.
SHBSTBOLITNFL “Serving Humanity By Serving TBOLITNFL.”
What if every person planet Earth consciously lived from their PIC?
Can you imagine what kind of world this would be if there were no victims and EVERYONE stopped complaining and started creating?
What if everyone on the planet stopped pretending to be a victim and took 100% responsibility for how they are showing up and who they are Being… no matter what happens externally?
What if there is no “Out There” and peace, freedom and happiness are all INTERNAL EVENTS?
What if everyone in the world WOKE UP and remembered WHO THEY ARE… LOVING, GIVING, SERVING, POWERFUL CREATORS?
What is Your PIC?
